Search This Blog

CI, CP, and other life changing acronyms

15 February 2018 - There's nothing to say really

Get link
Facebook
X
Pinterest
Email
Other Apps

- February 15, 2018

Current Stats:

* Yesterday's water intake: 90 ounces

* Goal water intake: 140 ounces

* Pain level: 6-8

* Current Mood: exhausted, overwhelmed

Get link
Facebook
X
Pinterest
Email
Other Apps

Comments

19 April 2018 - Picking Myself Up and Getting Ready + Vulture Medicine

- April 19, 2018

This weekend we are taking a "trip". I say "trip" because it is a field trip with kiddos, to a 4H center. :) After my post the other day, I've spent a good time thinking. I reviewed my motivations (which I have decorated in my bullet journal, and which is the background on my phone), I watched an episode of a show I frequent when I'm feeling down, and I spent some time yesterday immersed in art. What I ultimately came to was this: Whether or not I am blaming myself and down on myself right now, I have to make a choice about this next day (and this weekend). I need to get ready and make choices that allow me to continue on my path. Today's smile message was about taking time to notice the messages I was being given. Yesterday, on my way home from work, a vulture swooped down in front of my car. He was close enough that I could see his eyes and make out the colours of his neck and head. Clearly a message. The vulture tells us to go through life mak...

A Medical History - If I Only Had a.... Backbone!

- February 28, 2018

When I couldn't afford the MRI, I switched insurances. The MRI cost went from $600 to $45. The potential cost for surgery went from ~$4,000-10,000 to $250. I filled out the paperwork to have my files sent over to the new doctor and made an appointment as soon as I could. To say that I was disappointed with my new doctor would be an understatement. The roller coaster ride I went on was nothing short of disheartening and, sometimes, very depressing: The First Visit The first visit went very well. I felt heard by her. I felt like I was going to make progress. I told her everything I'd been through: the pain medication, the chiropractic therapy, the x-rays, the physical therapy (2 months), the potential for surgery, the pain, everything. I thought she really listened. I walked away from that meeting with: a new pain medication, and a "prescription" for bracing for both feet. The bracing was over the counter, but was of a certain kind to allow for more serious sup...

23 April 2018 - Weekend Reflections

- April 23, 2018

I am learning how I practise self care. I had some opportunities this weekend, much to my surprise, to practise self care - which I did. As I explore the art world more, I am finding peace and calm in things that, as a child, caused me stress. I remember as a child that my art teacher did not like left handed children. She forced us to use metal scissors that gave us splinters (I was one of two left handed children in the entire school). I forced myself to learn how to use right handed scissors to avoid splinters. I can no longer cut well with my left hand. When she yelled at me for not being able to draw as well as the others, my father taught me to draw upside down. She did not like this, but I found a way to do it anyways. Afterwards, I gave up trying to paint and draw much at all. Recently, I've rediscovered it, along with mixed media artwork. I am really enjoying rediscovering things I used to like to draw and how to draw new things. I don't post them all the time, but I ...